random

my friend, have you miss Kuching?

=)

got these photos while shooting at star cineplex carpark. hehe~

a friend + junior + co-actor = xian jun

a pic that i like of me

people say no tsunami in Malaysia, but still got solid metal trash that looks like that in UNIMAS.

a journey to God : pray =)

today s a day to remember.

I got a Camera!!

its a semi-pro digital camera. canon SX30 IS. ^^

thanks to my mum. and my GOD. I've been praying for a long time. it s really worth waiting. as long as i believe. hahah~

you too~

The Lord always do more than what you think and desire.

Shooting

Now, the busiest thing is shooting projects. its tired but it is fun. XD

Woow!! commercials are really time consumming to make one. BUT, IT. WAS. FUN.

How many that would know how the prettiest, funniest, coolest commercial is done!!?

Would YOU know if you are not a CINEMATOGRAPHY/MEDIA/BROADCAST/FILM student?

NOT a person in the field either.

WOULD you know!!!?

i don't think so.

hhahah..

it is really an EXPERIENCE . WoO hU~~

CM about phone. me dancer. DANCER!!!? Yup! dancer. XD (acting ma..)

rock climbing 16/2/11

I'm entering Squash club for my 2nd year in Unimas. But this week, we also do rock climbing.

in the pic is my president on top.

my advise. you need good arm strength for rock climbing.

eventually i don't have any yet, so i only make through 3 squares. heheh...

I thank God for the opportunity for letting me experience it. =)

I'm interested on giving it a try for some time already. It looks exciting.

and now i can say, IT IS!!

a journey to God : 10 prayers by Mick Bickle

Mick Bickle

I found a new website to strengthen our inner man.

its a website by Mick Bickle.

Prayers to strengthen out inner

its a very good sermon and teaching for us to follow.

a journey to God : proclamation

proclamation to my soul, to the devil, to the 4th dimension that I, Lydia Lau Lee Yee, is chopped and signed belong to God.

XD

to proclaim it, i put it as my desktop picture. hahaha...

Mark 12:30-31 (New International Version, ©2010)

Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.’ The second is this: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’ There is no commandment greater than these.”

a journey to God : unsatisfied

Happy chinese new year~~

May everyone have a prosperous year with God's goodness all year.

Something i'm not satisfied with my life. I'm a christian. I've been knowing sermons since young, but still struggle, or not even bother, to deal with my life, doing what God likes.

I'm now still a long way to reach the goal that God have given to us.

I'm not satisfied on how i speak, i act, i think.

You may think I'm a perfect girl. but, dear, you are wrong. I'm just a normal girl with habits that need to deal with. a girl with attitude that need to be changed.

I can be emotional until i don't think when i act and end up hurting people with my actions and word. I' m sorry.

“我们必需先在乎我们的神，然后 我们才有办法跟人的人际关系是好的， 是对的。” 江秀琴牧师

this is from Jiang mushi's sermon. I'm alerted.

my relationship handling is an issue. sometimes big. sometimes small.

And i found out something.

when i'm not doing my devotion in the morning,

when i'm not seeking my heavenly father's guidance,

when i'm busy shopping,

when i'm doing my shooting project,

when I'm stress with how could i arrange all my to-do lists on all my assignment,

when I'm not having God in every part of my life,

you'll see me in a bad mood,

you'll see me lifeless,

you'll see me acting very annoyingly,

you'll hear me saying thinks that will hurt,

you'll think again who is this that you are talking with.

when it IS that time, i BEG for you to ask me, 'Lydia, when is the last time you seek the Lord?'

Please remind me, please...

I need your help. I'm not that strong as I seems. I'm not that perfect as i am.

I'm not.

the sermon from 江牧师 is very encouraging. Its always point out what is happening is our life, why are we like this, what is the thing behind that made it like that and how to deal with it.

I encourage you, my friend that read this to listen to her sermons to know more of yourself.

God bless you all.. =) I'll be updating on my journey. my training

the inner life.

i found a web page in chinese. pastor grace (江秀琴牧师）teach about the inner life. a life that a christian should have.

God blow into us his behavior. His behavior of desiring to love and be love.

I am so thirsty inside me. the desire of wanting something to be filled in me. anything that i do in my mind not my heart. with my mind, its like dragging my heavy body. Why?

I wonder. i watch movie. i sleep. i serve. but still....

why? what's missing?

there is only one answer. God's love.

i desire his love but my mind is too stubborn. i want to stay in him more, but my mind is looking, finding from the world.

STUBBORN mind!

now, i m tired. tired and need rest.

fluffy bed and red wine?

nope. Rest in the Lord's presence. Go and find him for love. He is my only satisfaction. Only him can bring me to a spacious place, lying on green grass beside the flowing water.

Only Him and no other.

He's the God with fire of love surround him.

the music industry

Beaware of what you are hearing friends, be aware.

this is from Jeason's blog.

read it.

The road not taken

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth.

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same.

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Robert Frost. 1915.

be still

转一转， 转一转， 还是觉得我需要神成为我的锚，使我稳住。

Singapore

Everybody, Lydia now at Singapore.

There is something i need to confess. When there is no need, i really won't shop. Usually people say that women love to shop, I do agree. I ll also do that, but i m more too window shopping. Look around and see what are the new things around. Just for that. Unless, I do need some cloths.

I m still a girl, likes pretty cloths, likes to see fashion magazine, likes accessories too. I just don't buy them yet.. just hold my horses first. ^^

my sister

haha... this I must remember before i forgot.

Just now my sister called at 12.45pm. she ask that if i can go pick her up at school.. So, i say to her. i don wan to.. cause need to change and then go down.. She say she s hungry and will reach home only after 2pm.. I ask there is no school bus today? she say she don know cause didnt saw anybody that use the same bus with her. maybe they all go back already. i said, so you wan to waste the school bus fee to pick you up? then she said, okokok, forget about it.. byebyebyebye..

then she just hung up. i haven even finish my conversation.

So this is something i know about my sister.

she is impatient when it comes to waiting. she like fast pace. she won't really ask one thing lots of times unless she really wan it. don really like to be alone. can't stand of being hungry. when she is good, she will treat ppl nice. when she is angry, she ll blow anything no matter who you are.

she is a good friend among friends and family. what she hate, she like, you ll know it from her face. she sometimes she talks rough but she dont really mean it. its her style (some sort of way). she likes to share anything happen to her, about her family, about her friends, about what she like. a good chatter. got lots of different opinion on different things.

but now she is still not talking with my cousin, Janice. its been almost a year already. pray for both of them. two

this is what i know in year 2010. do you also know her? she s funny when she know her. but at first not really easy to get close. hahha...

P.S. : Actually today my car is in the clinic, so i cant take it out. but really like to say something other than the truth to see her reaction. haha... sometimes, because of this naughtiness, i end up having misunderstandings. haha...

really love my sister. muaks muaks muaks. XD

Shopping..

today went to skin food to but some emulsion. then the sales girl gave us some samples on other products. haha.. can try try la..


we tried lots of color before we bought any. So the finals are below.

this is all the thing me and my sis got.

Skin food : Cucumber & Lettuce Emulsion, Ph balance Nail Vita, Nut Essence Nail Vita, marine Color Nail Vita; sample pack - Sweet Chocolate foam, Honey Black Tea Jelly Foam, Rice Mask Wash off, Black Sugar Mask Wash Off, Potiron au Lait Cream.

money out flow got to stop already..

These 2 things down here I bought it at 18th May. hehhe..

130 Projects to get you into Film Making and a Mentholatum Lip Balm

these days go out = credit loss. XD

clean up

Today's Japanese class went well. =) althought still got some of it I don't understand yet. hheehe..

this afternoon I went to aunt's house to take away bibi's lunch back ,since she's been asking it everytime she comes home. I leave it at the computer table upstairs.

A sunny day today. I put the bedsheets from the guest room to wash. Grandma is going to stay from tonight. while waiting for the bedsheets and pillow cases, I put the blanket under the sun and the comforter after that.

*dididi..* the bedsheets are ready. Under the bright warm sun, you can see the clear blue sky with little white clouds fooling around. I line the bedsheets at the tip of the front gate.

bibi is not back yet.

I went upstairs finishing my Japanese drama. 'Operation Love, episod 5'.

Its 2.50pm. I recall my own plan of clean up the house. I hesitate. A bit lazy actually. hehhe.. but, I ve nothing else to do. ( not really nothing, but really like nothing to do since the sem break starts. )

So i started sweeping, moping.

Its 4.00 pm. Mum called. She said, " You haven't go over (to aunt's house)?" "e.. not yet." "you need to make egg tarts for my friend. I told you yesterday already." "did you?... oO... ok. bye."

I was halfway wiping the floor. Oh o!! I need to be fast.

4.23pm. Finish wiping the floor. clean up the toilet. put the floor cloth to dry. Ready for shower.

Bibi is not back yet... She follow my father home?? I don know.

finish shower. finally can go over to make egg tart. looking at the container with porridge from aunt's. I bring it over with me again.

met uncle and siew siew at the living room. Asked for the tart base. She s still busy with the last Chicken pie. So I went back to the kitchen to finish up the porridge. Haiz.. She didn't come back until 8.30pm

When my family come back, no one said anything about the floor os something. Is it not clean enough to be obvious? Maybe. =p or it is what i should do ? hhehe.. sometime human need to be encouraged and get a little attention. that's human.

but then don't yearn for men's praises, but let God's glory be shown through you.

Japanese

I'm going to start to learn Japanese.

Day 1 introduction

learn like the japanese way. hehhe..

i use this web site as a guide.

Japanese Grammar Guide

Day 2 - Day 8 Hiragana

加油啦！！ p(>.<)q

Long way ahead

What is it you want, Lydia? Is your heart confuse of something?

to wait for the Lord's presence for a whole day... or to watch a bunch of movie and end up asking yourself 'why did i do that'?

I m now back to the time, the gap where it's empty and you can do whatever you want. forget about what i ve chose before. But what do i want to do now?

Regret, repent, renounce, recover, renew. i know.

but when are you going to start to be obedience?

when are you going to start what you want to finish and finish what you start?

One by one, each must be done.

the trail will be watched by an angel sent.

little Lydia walking down the isle.

looking for the way to leading God.

today i watched a movie, actually 2 movie, from the same actor. 2 director, 2 stlye, 2 love story.

ハルフウェイ( Halfway )

导演: 北川悦吏子

僕の初恋をキミに捧ぐ ( I give my first love to you )

导演： 新城毅彦

fun

hahha.. ha~ i just had fun with God. i asked a question. can i go to Singapore with my Grandmother at the 22nd of may.

I prayed for a sign. i said if the phone rang on 9.00 pm, no matter who called, then i ll go. i waited for almost an hour.

the clock at my mac stated 9.02pm.

The phone didn't rang. i was just... okay, lord. i got you. hahahha... its been awhole since i play games with my father up heaven.. hahahh.... Actually, before this i prayed that if the tickets are both less than RM 100, then i ll go. Apparently, its almost RM 200. so i gave up. haahh.. this time i confirm again. Naughty and almost rebellious. hahah..

okay, lord. Got your message. What s next?

518.com

I checked. its a blank page with a clock ticking at the lower right corner.

what is it?

beware of time?

Maybe.

sign?

what does 518.com mean..., my Lord? what is it?